The Secret Life of Depression and Anxiety

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Posted by Jasmine Harris : 06/10/2017

My name is Jasmine and I am 21 years old. I'm a really shy person, who always seem to have a mean face but once you get to know me I’m outgoing, goofy, & fun to be around. My passion right at this moment is cooking, I want to be a pastry chef & soon own a business.

What started my depression was my mom's ex-boyfriend he molested me between the ages of 9-10. I was terribly afraid to confess what he had me doing and it’s a nightmare that'll never end. I finally got the courage to speak up and use my voice and he got 9-15 years in prison. I was glad because for once I felt safe and I didn't have to look over my shoulder to make sure no one was watching over me. When I was 15-17 I had completely forgot about him and I was happy as ever but when I turned 18 is when my life shattered.

I continuously had nightmares of my past but for some reason I couldn't figure out what was going on I knew I was missing a piece of the puzzle. When I found out I was the one being molested at a young age I lost it. I tried to commit suicide several times, I started taking sleeping pills left and right, and I wrote plenty of suicide notes. When I was in 11th grade I had to attend mental hospital and start taking medicine for my depression/anxiety. It worked for a minute but then I felt myself slipping back in my depression and once again I was back at square one.

I feel my goofiness and numbness to pain keeps me sane and from doing something that can't scar my family forever. Music & my passion for cooking also plays a role in helping me deal with my depression.

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