So YOU think YOU have it bad eh ????

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Posted by Ivor Nochance : Feb 3, 2011

I've died 3 times and I'm still here !
My time to leave just isn't near !
One thing that I've gained from this
is a pile of sh*te and a load of p*ss.

The cerebral A.V.M was just the first
evidence of being deformed pre-birth
The radiotherapy was next on the list
which made me daily go and get p*ssed

In alcoholic stupour I cracked
As a result of being attacked
The craniotomy has left a scar
Which you couldn't miss from very far

In between this my father was killed
and at that time I was quite chilled
Now I'm seething with retribution
Against this world and its institution

The girl I loved chose her time
to mark the sand and draw a line
since then I've never found any love
I'm now quite sure there's no-one above

As tormented as my soul has been
I feel no pity, know wot i mean ?
I keep away from class A substances
which just tempt fate and ruin chances

Been done twice for drunk driving
and the judge accepted my excuse
A quick look at my head was all he needed
to see I wasn't lying....heres the proof !!!

My time with drink is at an end
It nearly won and drove me round the bend
I can't see a future though cozza this
pile of sh*te and load of p*ss !

I've broke fingers in car doors, bike crashes and even DRILLED one!
With a 3/16th bit which went straight through !
As I stood with my dewalt through my finger
I asked myself 'WHAT do you DO' ???

Flick it into reverse and pull it out
or try and just remove it ?
Either way it was bloody sore and I've got the scars to prove it !!!

I fractured my skull after crashing my bike
and ended up in the neuro ward again !
When I awoke I had no taste or smell
and had six months of sensory hell !!

WHEN will life stop treating me this way
WHAT did I do to deserve it ?
I can see no future---only hell
and no way to avert it!

The 24 hour ringing in my ears and pressure on my brain
has shortened my temper and RUINED MY SLEEP AND BRINGS A LOT OF pain

IF YOU EVER FEEL DOWN
PLEASE REFER TO THIS
IT IS FOR REAL
AND NOT SOME PISH

SOME PEOPLE THINK THEY'RE HARD DONE-BY
BUT THEY DON'T KNOW THE HALF OF IT
TRY LIVING A DAY INSIDE THIS HEAD
AND SEE IF YOU GET THROUGH IT

with open arms. . .

Posted by Ivor Nochance : Feb 3, 2011

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