Month: September 2005

Depression Poems

when im depressd or sad i often make up poems here are 2:
My Pain
My heart has been lied to,
broken up into little pieces of pain.
theres no where to hide from it,
theres no way to tell when it will next pounce.
It awaits me,
like a predator stalking its prey,
it follows me where ever i may go,
and its always there when i arrive.
Friendships of mine are always shattered,
just like my heart when it happens.
people say friendships are made to be broken,
i believe the people who say that are the people that break the friendships.
Everyday i cant bear to live another day,
yet everyday i manage to smile,
laugh and have a good time, or so i say,
behind this smile there is a frown.
Behind these tears of joy,
lies tears of sorrow and pain.
let that not fool you,
i will tell you when i am peaceful again.
onli when i forgive the ones that made me this way,
shall i ever b how i used to be.
real laughter and smiles all round,
it will be a long time before anyone sees the real thing, soon.
People say to me, forgive and forget,
but i cant forgive, and i shall never forget.
my heart doesnt lie,
it speaks the truth.
And the truth, even when most solemn, is wat i stick to,
and somtimes the truth hurts more than the pain inside me.
my life will never have new beginnings…..
so y wont this dreaded life ever end?
-Jc
thy blade
thy blade is my best friend,
its always there,
and its always near.
wheneva im sad,
i reach out for my faithful blade,
and it does wat has to be dun.
it slices throu my soft skin,
the red flesh beneath rippin apart,
the blood oozin out from my arm,
and the d*mn pain of it all stingin inside,
calmin me down, its so soothin.
i no i deserve it,
i always have and always will,
people blame me for everythin,
and i dun blame den,
ive always dun everythin wrong,
i no i do, and so does everyone else.
my life has com to nothin,
so would i care if i cut myself?
no afterall i deserve it,
i deserve everythin i get,
im alrdy filled up with so much pain,
wat would anymore matter?
people say dat i shouldnt cut myself,
its bad for my health emotionally and physically,
but why should i care?
people say a lot of things,
and bsides wat doesnt kill you makes you stronger rite?
my friends say they care,
but why should i believe them?
all my friends have dun is lie to me,
endlessly ova and ova again,
and if they realli did care for me,
then why werent they eva der when i needed them most?
people can say wat they want bout me,
whether im a fake or im real,
i dun care anymore,
my lifes probably gonna end soon anyway….
-Jc

Depression Medication

Antidepressants or depression medication are drugs specially designed to overcome the problems in brain chemistry that cause depression.
Antidepressants are much more specific than painkillers. The SSRI drugs (marketed as Prozac, Seroxat, Lustral, etc) work specially to raise the levels of serotonin in the brain. Others raise the levels of noradrenalin. Lack of these mood-enhancing substances can cause depression. Raising their levels, a process that usually takes about 10 days, is usually very helpful.
There are side effects but they are often mild, short-lived and pale into insignificance as the depression improves.

While you were sleeping!!

Having trouble sleeping? Constantly tired and irritable? Read this and you’ll soon be nodding off…
• Quality of sleep is as important as the amount. It depends on two nerve centres — the sleep centre and the walking centre. When you begin to fall asleep, the walking centre gradually relaxes and allows the sleep centre to take over. Worries prevent the walking centre from letting go, so push them away.
• Unless your mattress is frim, you may not obtain refreshing sleep which give bones, muscles and mind a chance to recover. Sleeping on a sagging mattress can cause you to wake up tired. Your bed is your best friend; if too small, buy a bigger one, or twin beds, which you can place together.
• Vanquish sleepless nights by practising relaxation exercises, yoga or meditation. Learn to relax your muscles when you go to bed and substitute pleasants thoughts for your worries. Try deep, abdominal breathing and big yawns, which will make you feel tired.
• When sleep won’t come despite your efforts, get up and do something. Write letters, clean out drawers, cupboards or files, sort recipes or read a book. Only return to bed when you feel tired. If you still can’t nod off, laugh at yourself. Laughter is relaxing, so it may enable you to sleep.
• Expect to sleep when you go to bed by adopting a positive approach. Say: “I am really tired so I’ll sleep well tonight.” This encourages your mind to prepare for sleep.
• Try making love. Satisfying sex relaxes the body and encourages sound sleep
Zzzzz… nothing does you quite so much good as a good night’s sleep. It recharges the batteries of your body, provide energy and enthusiasm for the following day. Pleasant dreams!!

Signs of Depression

One or several of the symptoms listed below is usually present in depression. The severity and constancy of the signs make the illness diagnosable as depression. Often other people recognise depression before the person suffering. 

  • Constant tiredness 

  • Wanting to be in bed for long periods. 

  • Long period of sleep or poor sleep. 

  • early morning wakening. 

  • Feeling worse in the mornings. 

  • Over-eating 

  • Loss of appetite 

  • Lack of interest in sex 

  • Lack of interest in things and people. 

  • Becoming isolated from others 

  • Loss of self-esteem and self-worth 

  • feeling and thoughts of suicide 

  • Wories that are going mad 

Depressive Illnesses

When we are physically ill, few of us hesitate to seek treatment but the case is very different if we become mentally ill.
Most people find it very hard to accept that they have a mental health problem. However disorders such as depression, anxiety and fobias are commonplace and in most cases, readily treatable. It is important not to suffer alone and to seek medical help if you are suffering from depressive illness.